Saturday, May 23, 2009

I'mmmm Baaaack!

I'm returning to blogging because its time for me to start sharing about my life with fear and anxiety. Its time that I take the mask off and begin to reveal who I am as a disciple of Jesus Christ and how I live with fear and anxiety. Its ugly and beautiful, paralyzing and propelling.

I am going to take an unpopular stance, and say that I think fear and anxiety are temptations that can lead to sin. I'm not discounting the fact that millions of us who struggle with it may need more than spiritual intervention, but if you only medicate it you will miss out on the abundant grace God has in store for you. Fear and anxiety are rooted in what hasn't happened, but might, in the mind of the individual. For example, it could be bright and sunny out, but the one who wrestle with fear and anxiety can only focus on when it might rain next. There is always the potential for rain, but the individual allows that potential to rob them of the joy in the present sunshine. This may result in one constantly checking weather foracsts and watching the horizon for clouds. Can they control the weather, no, but they want to be ready for it when it does.

Why do I believe it can lead to sin, because its rooted in idolatry. Its a denial of God's love and intervention. It enables a person to believe that they can control the circumstances if they work hard enough.

At the same time, courage is close bedfellow with fear and anxiety. Courage is not the abscence of fear, but the recognition of it and moving forward inspite of the fear. Was Jesus afraid. Hebrews 5:7-9 speaks directly to Jesus calling out in loud cries and tears to the one who was able to save, and was heard because of his submission. It even says that Jesus learned obedience through suffering. Hold the phone! Jesus had to learn something? Yes.

In the coming posts I will share my experiences with fear and anxeity, how its impacted me and my family, and how I have become pro-active in addressing its source and reoccurances in my life.

Join me if you dare. Share if you like. Surrender if you can.